Potty Training / 18 Weeks

I want to remind everyone before I write this post that twins are hard in all things for 365 solid days of their first year of life. My babies were up EVERY.SINGLE.3.HOURS for 6 months and they didn’t sleep through the night for 8 months. Pumping for 6 months took a mental toll on my body that I wasn’t prepared for, caring for 2 infants was nearly enough to put me in the looney bin, and life through teething was far from a delight! I say all of this because we FINALLY hit a stage of life that came fairly simple.

Potty training. I should also say- I didn’t want to potty train my babies. Maybe because when I look at them I see 5 pound babies laying in the NICU fighting to go home so their crazy mama could get it together. They are just my entire world and I feel guilty wanting them to grow up. Here is what I REFUSED to do. I REFUSED to be the parent who said ” I want the babies to be x….before the new baby comes.” Friends- we have to stop that mentality. My sweet babies will not have to be ANYTHING faster because their baby sister is knocking on my uterus. I didn’t WANT them to potty train for any other reason than they were truly showing signs and I had three days off to get serious. They also did HAVE to be potty trained by August when they start preschool (cue all my tears)

We have done nothing to prepare for potty training. I am an all or nothing kind of mama. I don’t let me kids call the shots in our house. We run on structure and routine and I am the parent. Call me strict, call me ridiculous, call me what you will – my wife and I are a team and when we decide what our family is going to do – our kids conform. Because it is their only option. I threw away every single bottle they had on their first birthday. I threw away every single pacifier Noelle had on her second birthday (although the paci fairy came and left her a gift) and I have never once let me kids sleep with me and my wife. My bed has a purpose and it’s not for babies. Potty training was no different. We didn’t do panties half time, or ask if they wanted to try. No ya’ll. We woke up last Saturday, stripped the kids naked and threw away every diaper in our home. Sink or swim my sugars, it’s potty time. We made a bucket of toys and things that they don’t get to see or play with which kept their attention in the bathroom and we put them on the potty every 30 minutes for 3 days. No exceptions and no leaving the house. It was a commitment. But it worked. Landen had 2 accidents on Saturday (one pee and he pooped in the playroom…bless him) and Noelle had one early on Saturday. They have been in underwear ever sense and have had zero accidents at daycare all week and none at home either. What? Too good to be true!!! But we have 2 potty trained babies at less than 2.5 years old. WOOT WOOT!

In other news- I am 18 weeks pregnant today. I feel great and things are progressing well. I have not been to the doctor since we found out we are having a girl and I go back next Thursday for our anatomy scan. I hope all checks out well and we can keep grooving through this pregnancy. They say heart burn means hairy babies- I am clearly birthing a full size gorilla. So much heart burn! I can’t eat any plainer foods! Goodness!

So that’s our life right now- pregnancy, potty training, and surviving the school year that is winter time of indoor recess and standardized testing around the corner. Lovely.



It’s a girl….

I know YOU know because I posted it last week but I am still in total denial! I absolutely thought I was having a boy. Which actually, should have reminded me that it was a girl because I thought the twins were both girls so clearly I don’t know jack. I just had in my head this was a boy and wrong I was.

We arrived at our appointment at 8:00 on the dot. We updated our insurance and we waited. My stomach was in knots. I was so nervous. Nervous something was going to be wrong, or they wouldn’t find it, or my blood pressure would be through the roof.

We got called back and our favorite ultrasound tech was off and having another girl cover for her. She was nice and let us look around at the baby before looking for the good. The baby was sooooo squirmy and moving all over the place. Heart rate was 157. There goes some anxiety… then we moved to the gender and we all looked away. It was me, Karen, and my cousin Mallory in the room. She was in charge of the envelope because I would ABSOLUTELY cheat! It took awhile. Baby was sitting cross legged and she was pushing HARD to get to the goods. Finally, she said she had it and we were good. We looked at a few more pics and some 4D images and it was so amazing to see the features.

I went to work and waited for the party. I called my cousin at lunch and told her to rip it open because I couldn’t wait anymore. She said Hell NO!

We got to the restaurant, waited for our friends, and had cupcakes for the twins to bite into with the color to reveal. It felt like ages. Karen and I were turned around and waited for them to say “It’s….PINK” AHHH!

Now listen yall- I am THRILLLLEEEDDDD to be having a girl. I love that my last baby will be my baby girl and that everything is healthy and well. But oh my poor Landen. He cried because he wanted blue. Not that he wanted a brother, that he wanted a blue cupcake. Bless his precious heart!! He is going to be a good husband some day!! And I pray the Lord gives him a few sons. He will have earned it.

Our baby will be Gracelyn (Middle name to come) and we are so thrilled. We go back in 4 weeks (June 31st) for our anatomy scan. Time is really grooving. It’s so hard to believe we are here.

As far as me- I feel amazing. Belly is popped out and I am in the glory stage of pregnancy!!! Thankful for this miracle!!



One. More. Sleep

So here we are…

The night before we find out if our baby peanut is a boy or a girl. While I am so excited to finally know, I know that after tomorrow the wondering will go away. I will know if our family “baby” will be a son or a daughter and frankly it overwhelms me with so much joy. I thought for soooo long (3 years) that we would never be parents. It wasn’t working and no one could tell us why so to think that we will be a family of 5, 3 kids to raise and watch grow, fills me with all excitement.

People have asked me all day if I have a preference. I don’t care at all about what is between our baby’s legs. I do, however, hope for Landen that it’s a boy. I think another guy around would be nice for him but if you think for a second I won’t be excited for another girl, you are wrong. I have such a special bond with Noelle already and can see that my future best friend is growing in my little peanut.

Tomorrow our ultrasound is at 8:00 am. With the twins, Karen and I found out in the room at the appointment and then we had a party that evening to reveal to our friends. Tomorrow we are going to find out with everyone else. My cousin is going to the appointment with us and will be there to take the envelope to a bakery who is going to have two cupcakes for the twins to eat. We got cookies for everyone else that just say “girl?” and “boy?” I was way more excited about this idea until I got to thinking about how it is causing me to wait 8 more hours!! GAHHH! The excitement will sure be building.

As for Christmas and break and all things amazing, it was perfect. Our kids are at such a fun age of opening and appreciating gifts and having so much fun with Santa and baby Jesus. We went to mass and the traditions seem to get better and better every year. We traveled to northern Indiana to see my family at the beginning of the break so we could be home for actual Christmas and it was amazing. We were lazy a lot of days and also did lots of fun adventures like Chuck E Cheese, Inflatable Fun Factory, playing at the mall play set, going to see Christmas light displays, etc…it was a blast.

Wish us luck as we find the answer to the forever question “What are you having?”



12 + 5

12 weeks 5 days and couldn’t be more in love with this peanut!!! We went to the doctor Monday and started with our ultrasound to check for the hemorrhage. Praise the Lord it is gone!! She asked if I want to know what it is and I said OF COURSE!! So she said I can come back at my 15 week mark so we have an appointment scheduled January 4th when I am 15 weeks exactly to find out if it’s a Mr. or a sister. We are both team boy but absolutely want a healthy baby to love and snuggle. The twins go back and forth for what they think it is and Noelle usually tells me that baby sister is in her belly and baby brother is in my belly. She is a total hot mess. Landen usually says brother. So maybe he is on to something.

We met with our doctor and we went over a lot of things from my last pregnancy with the twins. She said the high blood pressure that came at the end was something we will surely watch this go around as well. My blood pressure was 138/84 at the appointment and she doesn’t want to see it above 140. She asked that I get a cuff at home and take it every morning. So far it’s been around 120/75 at home. I am a high energy person. I rarely “rest” and so when I am forced to sit and take it it ranges in the completely normal range. The doctor office gives me anxiety and I love them there so I am excited. This makes it hard to calm down for a BP reading. I will take my bp every morning and evening and take those numbers back with me January 4th. No signs of chronic hypertension at home….just in public when I am all over the place. I am glad it’s normal at home so hopefully we don’t have that as a concern throughout this pregnancy. I was put on BP meds after the twins but I quit taking it shortly after their birth. Maaaybeeee I should have talked to a doctor before that.

Today is our last day before Christmas break and we are heading home to do Christmas with my family before we come home for actual Christmas at home. I love traveling before Christmas so we can enjoy being home for good when we come back home.

I probably won’t update much before Christmas so Merry Christmas my blog sisters… I wish you all fertile thoughts, baby dust, and love and joy to your family.




My OB appointment is in an hour and a half and I am so excited for so many reasons.  First of all I get to see my OB which I just adore.  She was not at our first appointment as the first appointment is always with a nurse.  I also get an ultrasound to check the status of my hemorrhage.  I am obviously hoping it is gone.  I am also kinndaaa hoping that it’s still small in there so I can have another ultrasound soon. How terrible is that? haha! I know we probably won’t find out the sex today but we could definitely find out next time.  I am so excited to find out what this baby is.  I totally have a feeling it’s a boy. I want a boy.  We have a lot of estrogen in our home lol.  I adore my relationship with my daughter and my son but I am looking even more forward to seeing them bond with a new baby sibling.  They already kiss my belly and are just the sweetest.  June can’t come soon enough.  I will update after appointment but I am feeling great, I have some energy back which has been amazing, and Christmas is right around the corner!! love it!! Happy Monday ya’ll!!  Christmas break is 2 days away! I got this!!



10 Weeks

And just like that we are 25% of the way through this pregnancy…..HOW IN THE WORLD??? I honestly feel really good and it freaks me out.  As in I peed on a stick this morning haha.  I was sooo sick with the twins-this feels absurd.  I won’t complain though as having two toddlers changes some things.  I basically go to bed when they do so that tells ya I am sleepy.

Upcoming appts-

Dec 10- I go to fertility clinic for the last time.  He will adjust my meds if needed and tell me to continue them until Dec 14 when I am 12 weeks.  I always fear going off these meds that I dread more than anything.

Dec 17- Follow up with my OB.  Ultrasound to check on the hemorrhage and a doctor visit to see my OB finallllyyyy!!

How far along: 10 weeks!!

Baby is the size of: A prune

Total weight gain: -5 pounds 


  • Nausea on and off. Mostly at night or immediately when I wake up
  • Headaches on and off
  • I want to kill everyone at some point

Food cravings: Green Olives

Things that make me queasy: Nothing specifically

Maternity clothes: Pants yes, shirts no

Sleep: Good! I am exhausted at night. I don’t even look at my phone. I hit the pillow and it’s over

Purchases for baby: nothing yet

Purchases for mama: maternity clothes!

Best moment this week: Being back in a routine 

Miss anything?  Not yet!

Looking forward to: Growing the bump, baby getting bigger, getting out of 1st trimester, another ultrasound

The Bump: Took pics this morning!! Loving the growth!