Ughhh!!! When I first started blogging I was obsessed with people’s pregnancy journeys and I found so often that women would have their babies and they would never post it or write their birth story (my biggest obsession) and then I would be left to wonder.
Well pot, it’s kettle, you’re black!
To give myself just a teeeeeny tiny bit of credit, when we moved into our new home we didn’t have an internet provider yet because our area was so new. That was fun. Like the kind of fun you have right after a root canal. It was awful and I learned how addicted to wifi we are. My kids need Netflix and I need to scroll Facebook. It’s how we survive, judge as you wish!
So let’s get to it! WE HAD A BABY!!!!!!!!! Gracelyn Kate arrived June 27 at 8:11 am and weighed 7 lbs 9 oz and was 19 inches long. She had a full head of dark hair and is perfect. She has been the perfect addition to our family and we could not love her more.
Let’s hear the story- So I was being induced on the 27th and I went on the 25th for a final cervical check and to make a plan for induction. I assumed my doctor would say either go in the night before or go in at 6 or 7 in the morning. When I was induced with the twins, I was already in the hospital so my induction was a bit different. Anyways- we go on Tuesday and she says I am thinning and a solid 3 centimeters. I was so happy to be 3. I joked with my wife that I did 30% of the work before we got there and it was pretty painless. Not to mention I had been having contractions often and I was super ready to see some progress.
Lemme tell you what no one talks about – the emotional mess you are the night before you leave your babies to have a baby. UGHHH I couldn’t even get through bedtime. I was a mess. But back to the “plan for induction.” I said to my doctor “so when should we come on the 27th?” She said “Whenever you want….I mean you can come at 12:01 if you want…” huh? I was so confused. Didn’t I need an appointment? Totally crazy concept. Well as fun as going in to begin labor at midnight sounded- I was gonna pass on that. We decided to go to bed with the twins and head in around 4 or 5 in the morning and my doctor said she would come at 8 am to break my water. SOLD!
So that’s what we did! We went to bed and I actually slept a lot better than I expected. My cousin came over to be with the twins until daycare that morning and I didn’t even hear her. My alarm went off at 3:30 and I was ready to go. We got dressed, we left the house at 4:17 and we were admitted and in THE LAST AVAILABLE LABOR ROOM at 5:00 am. Pitocin started at 5:15 and it was go time. We had essential oils, massage tools, music, and everything else ready for our natural birth experience. From 5-7 contractions were manageable and we were cruising. It was beginning to intensify and my doctor came to break my water at 7:50. Gracelyn’s head was still pretty high so my doctor wanted to be sure head came down nicely. She asked me to stay in bed for an hour to let her come down before I used the ball or did too much walking. I agreed! We had all day, right? What’s an hour. Well my doctor broke my water and said all was going fine. My nurse (amazing) came back about 5 minutes later at 7:55 and said she just wanted to check to be sure all was still good. I heard the words that put my entire heart into my stomach “I feel a cord”
As someone who had a cord prolapse with a baby already, this was awful. I knew what it meant. It meant an immediate and emergent C Section. DAMMMNNN ITTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They called a code for all nurses to come and called my doctor back in. She checked me and out loud she said “mother fucker” which I think is super funny. Also- here’s a fun piece of info -when a cord is coming before the baby, a nurse, or someone, has to hold it and keep pushing it back up to stop it from coming out. Imagine the scene- they are prepping me for a c section in my labor room and then wheeling me to the OR with a nurse on top of my bed rolling with me while her hand is still holding in the cord. Painful? Just a bit!!
Of all the memories I have of that day, one that is ingrained in my head is Karen’s face looking into my eyes telling me it was all going to be okay while actually looking purely terrified. It was a hard sight to see as I knew I would be okay but she would be alone to wait that everyone was okay. As I wheeled into the OR I remember a nurse saying “Honey, they are going to have to put you to sleep.” I was in so much pain I said ” I can’t wait!!!” everyone kinda giggled and joked about it later but in the moment I was so serious. When Noelle’s cord prolapsed, I wasn’t numb for the cutting of my incision so I have felt a c section without the meds. I don’t recommend it. They put a mask over my face when I first got into the OR and they said “take some deep breaths.” I thought that was going to be put me to sleep. I kept taking breaths and not falling asleep and I went in to fulllll panic. I was so sure I was going to feel it all again. I was sobbing. Then the anesthesiologist said “I am going to put this in your IV to put you to sleep” and all I could say is “what is this mask for??” He said “It was to help calm you down but it’s not working.” So I guess it was just a gas but nothing good enough to put me out. He put me out and I woke up to a recovery nurse saying “you have a baby!!”
A beautiful baby. A baby who was handmade for us. She came to recovery and we did skin to skin and it was amazing. Karen had seen her and gotten updates from the nurse. She came out a little pale so they watched her in the nursery while I was waking up and then brought her to me probably 20 minutes after I woke up. I can’t say enough about the medical team that day. Everyone was incredible and made what was a very scary time into the best possible day. We got to have her with us the entire stay and went home 48 hours after she arrived. The twins love her, she sleeps pretty well, and I am healing slowly but surely. Did I get my natural labor? No, I didn’t but I got the labor that gave me the precious gift of Gracelyn Kate and I wouldn’t change a single thing about it.